Up & Down & Up Again, Down & Up & Down Again

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I have been on a bit on hiatus as many of you have noticed, hope you weren't too worried. Explaining my absence is tricky. After reaching Redemption Cove, I sailed immediately to Deterioration Cave, gaining a couple of pounds the following week. Why? because I hit the chips hard, wicked hard! Then more recently I lost another 5 pounds, I currently weigh 461. This string of weight loss yo-yoing is unsettling, disappointing and embarrassing. I was so consistent for so long, and now this.

Perhaps the bigger issue I have been dealing with is my inability to focus and start and finish tasks, and general interest in things. My therapist believes this is a symptom of my depression. I cant seem to start anything new whether really big or small, really important or insignificant. It spread to the blog, as I gained weight that week I felt less like writing, on that weigh in day, and every day after I said I would write, or said I should, but haven't. Somehow finally today I have managed, I feel just being able to get this done should boost my productivity in other areas though.

Aside from the focus and task things, my mental health has been mostly good, actually. The only bad spot is a very bad issue has popped up with a lifelong friend, one so serious I had talk to my therapist about cause its affecting my psyche. In the coming days Ill liking post more about  that issue, wanting some feedback. That's all for now, I am back!

I wrote this yesterday but I made so many errors that when I seen all the red underlines and yellow highlights I just couldn't bring myself to correct anything, felt like another task to add to the list... finally today I mostly corrected what I noticed. I seem to always notice more errors after a post goes live, than when I  triple and quadruple check it.

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