BPD & Other things
I've been managing to create new lows for myself, the other day someone from TLC's my 600lb Life reached out to me about joining the show. It was not the kind of message someone like me wants to see... maybe like 10 years ago sure. But now with all the problems I have with image and weight loss, for them to solicit me was quite the slap in the face, although Im sure they meant well, after all there are people who would jump at the opportunity. Not me A guy mistook me for a woman in a store the other day, that hasn't happened in so long, i had recently shaven, and I unfortunately bare an unusual amount of excess fat in my chest, plus I guess I dont have the deepest of voice! Still it was quite crushing. Still because of on-going therapy this wasnt as deep a cut as it could have been, Im almost proud of myself how well Ive been rolling with the punches. Ive been on a weird eating cycle of basically eating everything. Admittedly its boredom based I want to get things back