Showing posts from April 24, 2016

Crossing Over

When I was younger, in middle school, think 14-15ish I remember these ads that used to play on TV for an antidepressant. It showed a white oval moping (sometimes with a little rain cloud) around as the narrator explained how changes in X activities could be symptoms of depression. Ironically that was for Zoloft, the for first medication I was put on. I also remember those depression hurts ads Those come to mind a lot, I suppose vary by region. I mention all this cause I got to bed at 5pm yesterday because my anxiety and depression were high, and and out of the blue those ads came to mind.

Last week I weighed an even 400lbs, last Sunday mom made her homemade pizza, and I knew it was going to have a devastating impact on the scale, I stuck to only have two slices on average a day until Tuesday when I had three to finish it off. I still somehow managed to lose in spite of the what was sure to be several days of quadruple sodium levels, and one day of being slightly over calories. This we…
Been rather drowsy lately, also been feeling, well I don't know how to describe how  Ive been feeling. The nutritionist appointment Tuesday went well, she's always happy to see the numbers go down, even if I'm not satisfied with the numbers, she does do a good job sometimes of putting things in perspective about certain people being over weight and not being able todo simple tasks. Which reminds me I remember a couple years ago when I would be exhausted from walking from one room to another, that's no longer an issue. Even my mom has benefited from me being on..... Whatever this is "journey" if you will. As we were leaving  from the nutritionists she stopped midway heading towards the car and said  I remember when months ago walking from here to the car used to make me exhausted. Now nothing. She has lost weight (overall) along the way as well.

This is me attempting to see the bright side. Tomorrow is weight-in, I'm probably in for a gain do to high-sodiu…