Brandon, Who Lives At Home

 Not a simple answer. I grew up with two older brothers who I felt my mom favored, especially the oldest. They were also in trouble alot. I was very attached to my mom but  she used most of her time and mental resources on my brothers. I was much different than my brothers, easier. Mom was easier on me and spoiled me when she could. My brother's hated this. Because I was so much more of  an easier child, I was left to my own devices quite a bit. But during my childhood our relationship was at its best, it's also when my bingeing started. I did have an imaginary grandmother tho, in spite of having 2 grandmother's. I'll add more to this later, but for now this is it. 

It's been a few weeks since my last update. Things are going well. I was able to turn things around. Got back to eating on track, and avoiding binging. I took preemptive step with my mental health by going back into that partial hospitalization program. I felt I needed to get ahead of of the slow sink I was getting in because I wasn't binging. I figure this would strengthen my mental and prevent a future relapse and allow me to lose weight more consistently because there will be no setbacks. Last week was my first week back, it's interesting this time around to be quite honest in. I have questioned whether I should have returned. The other stories I hear while there are so much more severe and gripping. But I'm hacking through the bad self talk. I haven't hit the gym much at all. I did go Wednesday of last week. And I made major improvements. I was able to do 25minutes on the elliptical and hit some machines. Felt like a return to form. I over  did it on the l