Draft
*This has been sitting in my drafts for weeks now and even though my recent post pretty much summed everything up. This does s better job*
I haven't posted much over the last several months mostly cause I have such little to say and feel so unmotivated to write. That being said, its been many highs and lows, my current weight is 324. I could be out of the 300s if not for the cycle of binge eating and desatructive restricting loop I got myself stuck in. Anytime ive been this close to breaking out of the 320s I do something that rockets me back into the 330s for weeks.
I think a large part of my lack of motivation is that I just don't feel like someone who has lost 200lbs and that's because all of my clothes are old, even the smaller stuff I have is old, it was either my brothers or my friends, but I really haven't had that moment where its like "wow." Me and my therapist were talking about this for several weeks, I really need a new wardrobe. I just cant afford one right now.
I dyed my hair recently, or rather bleached, I'm not sold on the outcome. I'm going to attempt toning it again in a few weeks, There isn't too much new with me, Ive been kind of depressed lately, wondering what my purpose is and wondering if there is a point in continuing all this. All the bad things happening in the world right now are contributing.
I haven't posted much over the last several months mostly cause I have such little to say and feel so unmotivated to write. That being said, its been many highs and lows, my current weight is 324. I could be out of the 300s if not for the cycle of binge eating and desatructive restricting loop I got myself stuck in. Anytime ive been this close to breaking out of the 320s I do something that rockets me back into the 330s for weeks.
I think a large part of my lack of motivation is that I just don't feel like someone who has lost 200lbs and that's because all of my clothes are old, even the smaller stuff I have is old, it was either my brothers or my friends, but I really haven't had that moment where its like "wow." Me and my therapist were talking about this for several weeks, I really need a new wardrobe. I just cant afford one right now.
I dyed my hair recently, or rather bleached, I'm not sold on the outcome. I'm going to attempt toning it again in a few weeks, There isn't too much new with me, Ive been kind of depressed lately, wondering what my purpose is and wondering if there is a point in continuing all this. All the bad things happening in the world right now are contributing.
