The Remedy Is The Experience. This is A Dangerous Liason
I haven't blogged in a week+. Things are still in track, not sure what was with the mini break. I guess I just felt all written out. Last Friday I seen my psychiatrist, she was very pleased with my developments. I have not exercised much at all. This week so far, just one day. I haven't been eating a lot and I honestly feel it throughout my body so I've been trying not to over do it In the past this is the exact type of thing I'd be reaching for, but no!
I met with a longtime friend of mine Wednesday. I dont get to see her very often she's always busy, teaches and lives out of town. She bought me a new fitbit! She gets them 50% off at Verizon because she knows someone there. Or rather that person gets 50% off but uses it for her. I look up to her quite a bit, her life while hectic, seems so interesting and full.
Hit the store yesterday I just needed more oatmeal (but also got yogurt, chips, milk) and it was tough. They had the store littered with triggers. Reeses, Reese's Pieces in a bag shaped like carrots, bags of Reese's eggs, bags of Reese's Thins (I've never seen these before), individual Reese eggs, Giant deluxe Reese eggs. It was overwhelming, then there where kitkats everywhere. I began to feel like wrong, or empty by not getting one of these things. Almost like I was having a brief emotional detachment issue. The next temptation was the donuts. I stood and looked for a few seconds. I considered grabbing a box of the sour dough glazed. I shook my head and moved on but not before having to pass the snack cakes, actual cakes, cookies and various pies, oh my.
I got some Halo Top Ice Cream. Ice cream doesn't trigger me I think it's the consistency. I also just don't like it that much. As a kid I did but I was always a pastry person, a candy bar guy. Anywho I got a oatmeal cookie flavor and waffle-something flavor. Honestly neither of them sound remotely appealing but I do like halo top and they were on sale. So they'll be here when I need fix.
Also got new glasses. Nothing special.
I met with a longtime friend of mine Wednesday. I dont get to see her very often she's always busy, teaches and lives out of town. She bought me a new fitbit! She gets them 50% off at Verizon because she knows someone there. Or rather that person gets 50% off but uses it for her. I look up to her quite a bit, her life while hectic, seems so interesting and full.
Hit the store yesterday I just needed more oatmeal (but also got yogurt, chips, milk) and it was tough. They had the store littered with triggers. Reeses, Reese's Pieces in a bag shaped like carrots, bags of Reese's eggs, bags of Reese's Thins (I've never seen these before), individual Reese eggs, Giant deluxe Reese eggs. It was overwhelming, then there where kitkats everywhere. I began to feel like wrong, or empty by not getting one of these things. Almost like I was having a brief emotional detachment issue. The next temptation was the donuts. I stood and looked for a few seconds. I considered grabbing a box of the sour dough glazed. I shook my head and moved on but not before having to pass the snack cakes, actual cakes, cookies and various pies, oh my.
I got some Halo Top Ice Cream. Ice cream doesn't trigger me I think it's the consistency. I also just don't like it that much. As a kid I did but I was always a pastry person, a candy bar guy. Anywho I got a oatmeal cookie flavor and waffle-something flavor. Honestly neither of them sound remotely appealing but I do like halo top and they were on sale. So they'll be here when I need fix.
Also got new glasses. Nothing special.
