Taking in the stairmaster has honestly been a challenge, the first day I did 5 minutes, and the second day I did 3, I just didn't have it in me, yesterday the third day I managed to do 5 minutes again, all parts of my leg were burning it was tough, in fact, two minutes in I considered quitting again, but I truly pushed myself to get to that 5. That small amount of time was very impactful on the rest of my night there. It had my legs feeling so used up, that I couldn't do my typical treadmill routine. I had to scale back. One thing I did yesterday that I didn't do the other two days away do the step,aster first, I decided that I just don't have the stamina at the end of everything todo the stairmaster , so I decided to make it my starter. I struggle getting to 5minutes, but the goal is to try to reach 10 soon, I'm going to try to add an extra minute on everyday.
My eating has honestly been a mess, not over eating but eating the wrong things, I've noticed that …
Halloween is just a day away, the true candy spreading will commence. This doesn't mean too much to me actually. Unless I'm asked to take one of my nephews trick-or-treating last minute which would be quite the anxiety inducing nightmare, but I would do it nonetheless. A new week is about to begin and so a weigh-in will be had as well, it's not going to be a great weigh-in, and I'm hoping I use this as added force to move in the right direction
I went to see my dad again yesterday, it was a bit of a shorter visit this time, but it was alright, someone else was there when I arrived, which made me a bit reserved, all in all it was a good visit and he seems to be doing pretty well still. I was able to the allow myself to watch the second episode of Stranger Things over the weekend, that was a breakthrough, I'm not sure when I'll get around to the rest, hopefully soon. Tomorrow is Halloween maybe I'll watch a few then.
I'm just a little unwired this week. I obviously have a lot on my mind and I'm feeling the pressure of finding myself, finding motivation, losing weight, but not just losing weight exiting the 300s, and just being more comfortable in my own skin. I know I'm gaining weight next week, entirely because I took in too much sugar.
A few weeks ago I discovered Tim Tams, I didn't know they were sold here, I've seen some of my favorite YouTubers try them when they were visiting Australia, where the chocolatey coookie snack originates. When I noticed they had rather plausible calories, sodium and you get two per-serving I decided to get a package. Over a week or so I made my way through them, eating two a day after dinner, they were the perfect desert, absolutely no guilt. No risk of jeopardizing the scale.
The issue came when I figured I get another pack last week, but instead got in store bakery cookies because my nephew was with me and also there was a buy one get one f…