More Than Just Survival, This Is My Revival

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Everything is in place. I weighed in at 543.0lbs. That’s an intimidating number I must say but I’m ready to start knocking it out. I’m going to do this in spite of my borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, and ADHD. These things will make my journey harder but I have to manage. Manage to lose. I let a lot of people down by refusing to get weight loss surgery, many people don’t think I can lose it own my own anymore. And that really grinds my gears. But what’s in the past is in the past, and it’s fair to think a 500+lb individual can’t lose  the weight on their own, after all, there are people who weight less than me on tv shows about getting weight loss surgery. So what chance do I have? You’ll see, you’ll all see.

Future-self/ideal me, the dream is back



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