Boot Camp Week Second Edition [suspended]

I don't know what caused it but I woke up with terrible lower back pain, so severe that I can't even stand upright for very long. I have a very high threshold of pain and don't throw around that phrase loosely, but I had to pop some ibuprofen to reduce the pain. To aid to a less than stellar start I had to come to terms with the fact that last night I had broken my few months old new glasses. It was devastating! I of course blamed my weight, as I had taken them off while on the bed, but I mistook the foreign object I felt for a pencil, which turned out to be my glasses. Snap! I briefly entered a incredibly toxic extremely dark state of mind, it lasted maybe 10 minutes, but the severity of my angry at myself was massive and destructive to say the least. Once I had gotten out of that cloud I was kind of shocked just how fast that escalated, and just how fast it was gone. Definitely something I'll be bringing up in therapy tomorrow.

So Fitness part of boot camp week is being put on hold likely until next week, I'm likely going to make an appointment with my doctor tomorrow and hopefully get some answers, and maybe something to remedy the pain.

Mental health and food goals will continue as planned. I'd like to point out that it was suggested in a comment that I slow down my ambitious mile increases that I originally had planned, and just stick to one. Had things not  gone sour I would have taken that advice and just done one mile a day for the rest of the week. It would have been a much more tolerable route to take.

Last night I read three chapters of my book, and suddenly the main character has become quite.... Interesting, suddenly I'm seeing the book might be taking a different path than I imagined, and I'm liking it!


  1. Sorry to hear about your back. In spite of the glasses breaking incident, you mostly sound like you are in an ok place emotionally at the moment.


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