Losecember Week 1 Weigh-In

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After a week of adding healthy regular routines back to my rotation in my life, time came to find out if any of that paid off. Last week I weighed an even 436.0 pounds, this week, 433.0. I lost an even 3 pounds. That's a nice start to Losecember, just what I wanted to see, decreasing numbers.

Happy dance

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