8:23 AM

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Feel urge to eat. Urge, not need, urge. Food has been on my mind all night. Whether or not I'll stick to the fast, thinking if I should my do my upteeth final hooray meal then begin reset.

I've drank 10oz of water. Took my meds for the first time in a full week. Attempting to stay on path

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