Eating, Less Thinking

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Ive been eating more than usual  the past day, lots of chocolatey things, also pizza. I left home yesterday to hangout with Nick and Melissa, I've been indulging in their junk food that I usual resist and even though I actually brought my own healthy food  I decided, screw it I'm just going to eat whatever. I ate way too much pizza yesterday, but oh well, I've eaten way too many chocolate cake snacks but oh well, champagne problems I suppose.

The working out agenda for the week has been scrapped. Everything is up in the air.

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