Tonight I'm Going To Bury That Horse In The Ground
I seen my aunt over the the week for the first time since her procedure, she got the gastric bypass surgery as I mentioned before, she's been in town several times but this was the first time I've actually seen her. She looked fantastic, you could really see she had lost a lot of weight everywhere, she had so much more facial definition (I keep an eye out for that as it is a problem area for me). I was really happy for her and glad to hear she was doing everything she was supposed to be doing, because the first few weeks after surgery she kept rolling the dice and quickly learned the very hard way that, that game simply can't be played anymore. Anyways she said she was really proud of me for sticking to my journey and and having the patience and determination to stick with it because not a lot of people can do that (mind you I never mention my weight loss... ever, so she brought this up). She later told me very casually how she's always bragging about to her friends and doctors about how much weight I've lost. I was taken aback. You talk about me and my weightloss to people? I asked. She looked at me like I was ridiculous, Of course I tell everyone how proud I am of my nephew, not many people can do what you've done. She replied. I almost had a moment.
Then my mom mentions that she even brags about me in this online bingo game she plays and the people have even told her to tell me keep up the great work, but she hasn't cause she thought I wouldn't like that she was talking about me. This is obviously a big deal, how many times have I written that I felt like none of the family cares, or that this journey is not even being acknowledged. Apparently it is. I've been dragging that horse around for awhile, I'm finally going to move on.
Myfitnesspal gave me this little milestone image thing today, it's kinda cool.