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Superbowl Sunday
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Its the day of the biggest sporting event of the year, the Superbowl, and I'm going to a buddies Superbowl party. Ive actually been having second thoughts about going, honestly if I hadn't already committed to going I wouldn't, but I think it would be rather rude not to show up at this point. It isn't the food, but I tend to just get a lot of anxiety when I know I'm going to be in a group of people, even if its people Ive known half my life. The fear of being judged is still present, and the fear of being introduced to new people is also scary because, again, Id worry I'm being judged, it could all be in my head, but the thoughts always there.
All the above being said, I'm going to try to have a good time, and enjoy myself and the commercials, and the company. It should be fun.I will be taking pictures, and maybe some videos so look forward to an update later on in the day, and if not Ill fill you guys in tomorrow on the festivities.
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Well yesterday was the big game, and I must say I had a good time. There were some dudes on the field throwing a bowl and running from time to time before and after the halftime show, and between commercial breaks. Never mind that, the food was the nights real main event, honestly it was mostly dips, velvetta cheese dip with some kind of salsa infusion, skyline chili dip (an Ohio thing), there were also mini chicken quesadillas, bbq meatballs and a special veggie dish because, they took into account my diet (I was quite blown away by this). I had an early breakfast Sunday, bacon, eggs, toast. I skipped lunch because, duh, I was to take precautions in case I indulged in the Super Bowl delights, and sadly I did. I started off good, a few celery sticks and some peanuts, later I opted to try the dips, I basically had two servings of the Velveeta dip (with corn tortilla chips), and i tried a mini quesadilla (no beuno). At first I thought I kind of over did it, but then ...
