The Journey Continues

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I tossed and turned all night throughout my sleep, and I got to bed quite late, actually I normally do. I woke up kind of aching all over. Had an egg and bacon sandwich for breakfast in addition to my regularly water in take. I don't know if Ive discussed this or not but Ive been drinking a lot of water. I have this big bottle (pictured below) that I fill up first thing in the morning and drink. I generally drink about a bottle and a half before i begin my exercise at 2pm, and at least another bottle full before the day is over.

 

Today I began my 3 miles a bit sluggish.  I just tried to go in with enthusiasm, and perhaps I did, but my body just wasn't into it. I was just struggling with it so much today and couldn't wait for it to be over, once I got to the one mile point I thought "this could be it, this is enough, at least I did something." But I charged ahead in spite of the defeatist mind frame I was in. It just seemed longer than ever, but I did it. Ive been trying to recall if I normally hit a stall mid-week. I think I did when I was doing the 2 miles, last week I was sick and skipped Wednesday altogether, and I don't recall if I did during the 1st week.

Good news is, because I completed my miles today, that brings my weeks total to 9, and that's the same amount I did last week all together, so that is quite the victory.



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