Heres Whats For Dinner

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6-20-2016

Below we have my usual of boneless, skinless chicken breast (lightly season with garlic and sea salt). Steamed veggies (broccoli, cauliflower and carrots) and some baked fries which I generally have quite often. This is 210 calories. I actually did eat a bit more today, in comparison to the last several days, but I still have ended up with 1290 calories to spare.

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