I posted the above to Instagram earlier, while I do see a difference in the pictures it took me very long time of examination to come to the conclusion, and in the end I decided it was a subtle difference, but a difference nonetheless which is something I would have been mentally blocked from acknowledging not too long ago. To be honest the both photos give me anxiety.
I think I found the dumbbell workout I'm going to start doing next week, I looked around quite abit via YouTube and the one I found seems to be the most tame, there are a few parts that are cause for concern though, the squats, and the thing he does around 3:50 where he gets on the floor, on his back, and then does this thing (very helpful I know) with his legs. Still this is mostly tame in comparison to everything else I was seeing. The plan is to do the dumbbell workouts at home, and go to the gym several days next week, and I'm still looking, and by looking I mean, often thinking/considering into that Cize Dance workout for none workout days