Brandon, Who Lives At Home

The first 24 hours of the water fast are behind us, and It went better than expected. Phantom food cravings coming and going, sometimes triggered by sight. I follow someone on Instagram with the user name Bombassmealpreps and he makes all this delicious keto food that looks absolutely to die for. He recently made some cookies that had me rethinking everything. But I moved on, the first 2-3days are the hardest as for as hunger and cravings go, it honestly hasn't been as bad as it normally is, so far. Once you make it past the 3rd day your appetite just turns off.. Pending if you've started the detox, the detox portion can be rough because you lose water and sodium so much more rapidly and thats often where a lot of people throw in the towel. Ill be enduring, the goal is 7 days, 6 to go.

Im beginning a water-fast to kick off my weight loss  I am particularly interested in the detox portion but also the mental rejuvenation that occurs. Im doing a minimum of 7 days, I've done 9 days straight before, which started out as 2-days and keep getting extended. We'll see how I fare with this goal before I start making any claims of extensions. I haven't been motivated to do this in awhile but finally I've gotten the drive I need. Ill be taking a shot (two tablespoons) of apple cider vinegar twice a day with water magnesium and potassium supplements. a sprinkle of pink  Himalayan sea salt for energy purposes regular medications WATER, WATER, WATER

The week started out well and then ended rather bumpy. A  few months back my psychiatrist ordered an ECG because I started Vyvanse a switch from strattera for my ADHD & B.E.D . I dragged my feet about getting it until a few weeks ago. The results, a diagnosis; Sinus tachycardia , non-specfic T wave abnormality, abnormal ECG.  We couldn't go any further up on Vyvanse because of this. I've been ordered to see a cardiologist. This could split into any number of ways. My friend recently gave me her series 2 apple watch, I gave my fitbit to my mom. The apple watch is constantly alerting me of having a high or elevated plus/heart rate, I'm probably going to need to get an a newer one because they have a built in ECG monitor. But of course I cant afford it.  Im stuck in a state of balance, but its getting wobbly, I think I can just turn this around by losing weight, then I think of how far I've fallen. Im back on high blood pressure meds and my heart might be in tr...

The week has been mostly good, eating has been great drinking too, I went walking at the park yesterday and this morning, did my homework for therapy, getting to bed on time and sleeping well, controlled my distorted thinking, watched a movie, and  made a appointment. Bad news is I've lost my keys and cant find them, Im beginning to think they  aren't in the house. Mucho bummero

Steady

Don’t feel great, massive acid reflux flare up has ruined my day, cant so much as clear my throat without acid burning up my esophagus.

Today was a bit harder on me mental health wise. My mind kept wanting to slip back to that familiar dark pit, but I fought it and mostly avoided going backwards. Another day of off eating but calories were 2,100. Yes over the goal slightly but its better than.... yeah I dont know. My moms birthday is tomorrow. Should be a fun day. Its also weigh in day, going to see the damage, stay tuned for that. Overall eating is down  this week considerably and water intake is up by like 1000% so thats good

Today was interesting, had leftover pizza for dinner, a my protein shake for brunch and mostly stayed in good spirits. I realized today the absolute need for losing weight as I noticed everything feels like a struggle, the slightest thing feels like a task, My knees and back hurt. I desperately need to change this course. Finally shop a video today, I'm not exactly happy with it but I dont hate it, but it was mostly for test purposes. Hopefully the next one will be better. We'll see

Almost my bedtime, figured Id squeeze a quick post in. Today was not perfect, I had homemade pizza for dinner( grandmas birthday request) it was divine however, it wrecked my calorie take. I almost recorded a video but I was too lazy to set up, maybe tomorrow. Any suggestions for topics? Anything you'd like me talk about? Please let me know. Therapist said she was proud of me today for all the recent developments, and someone else said I looked "radiant" that was very pleasant.

Today feels like its gone by pretty fast. I drank my water had my veggies, tracked everything. Its been a pretty solid day. I might start taking pics of my meals again. Im not always eating something " diet friendly " but if it fits in my calorie range than its fine. I tested out recording today, just sample audio visual stuff. Think I'm good to go for making blogs. or dare I say, mukbangs. This was today's dinner, I was craving noodles. This was teriyaki beef chow mien by Nissin , I added in one tuna pack, a cup of mixed broccoli and cauliflower and topped it off with some grated Parmesan cheese. 630 calories, worth every one!

The day has gone without a hitch. I did drop the ball on the vegetable route but that will be remedied tomorrow for sure. Feeling a lot less unhinged today, the new routine has given me some much needed structure. I haven't decided when I'll begin the exercises, I was thinking mid week, going to start on a lower level and gradually go up. Of course there is a 50% chance I will test the waters with going straight to the level I was before, just to gauge how far in I can get. In fact I think I'll do that. I'll do what I can and regain my endurance. That being said if I am able to do the full hour 5 mile  multi muscle walkout (walking + workout) I'd see some incredible results. Or so I say. I have to try to prepare my mental to accept that progress is happening, I dont want this journey to be like the last. Nearly completely blind to progress I was making and hating every bit of it. I slept great last night, hoping for a repeat. Being well rested really does have ...