The Ball Keeps Rolling
As I expected, today's workout was a rough one. I kept telling myself every mile that it was the only one I could do, yet I manged to complete them all. I again didn't incorporate the sitting exercises, I just didn't have it in me and my knee had a bit of a moment. During my workout there is a point where I have to do quadruple knee lifts for each each knee, and somewhere in there when my leg came down I just got a bit of pain shooting through my knee for a split second. I became a little more careful, but incidentally I feel my knee beginning its Wednesday stiffness already. So tomorrow I'm going to break from doing the walking workout, and just do the sitting exercises, Ive been thinking for a few weeks that I need to make some kind of adjustment mid-week that when my body typically hits a halt.
I wish it was already Thursday so that tomorrows interview would already be over, and decided. I do fine in the interviews, I'm able to hide my all my fear, and anxiety. I just hate the build up, the drive to, the waiting in some room, then it begins. My anxiety has died down a bit from earlier though, thanks in part to the marathon of the Simpsons I got going on and a game I started playing. The worst part about anxiety is when you use something to distract you, and out of nowhere you suddenly get a glimmer of that anxiety. Like you suddenly become conscious of what your trying to avoid thinking about. That's been happening all day, I guess its a small price to pay to be able to separate from the anxiety at all. I know tomorrow will be the worst of it, every hour it will intensify, until the interview has begun and then ended. But I'm trying to keep it together.
I wish it was already Thursday so that tomorrows interview would already be over, and decided. I do fine in the interviews, I'm able to hide my all my fear, and anxiety. I just hate the build up, the drive to, the waiting in some room, then it begins. My anxiety has died down a bit from earlier though, thanks in part to the marathon of the Simpsons I got going on and a game I started playing. The worst part about anxiety is when you use something to distract you, and out of nowhere you suddenly get a glimmer of that anxiety. Like you suddenly become conscious of what your trying to avoid thinking about. That's been happening all day, I guess its a small price to pay to be able to separate from the anxiety at all. I know tomorrow will be the worst of it, every hour it will intensify, until the interview has begun and then ended. But I'm trying to keep it together.
