Yesterday And Today

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Yesterday went a little better diet wise. For Breakfast I had a bowl of cereal and a few pieces of sausage... and I finished off the last four peanut butter cookies. For lunch I had a half a sandwich and some chips, and for dinner I had a lunch meat sandwich and chips, I snacked on some popcorn near the nights end.

Report Card

Diet: Fair. Those cookies! Otherwise it would have been a solid day

Exercise: Poor. I did not do anything

Water: Good. At least things are getting back to normal in this area.

Sleep: Decent. Got to bed a midnight.

Mental Health: Poor.




I'm really going to try to balance myself out. I need to free my mind and prepare for the coming week, my orientation has been rescheduled officially to this Tuesday, top of the week. I know I have a couple days before anxiety will start hitting me so I need to stabilize myself mentally to be able to handle whats to come. Today I will do at least a mile walk at some point, we will see how that goes. I'm going to be watching a lot of Extreme Weight loss today to boost my spirits, and to inspire me to keep pushing on. I will be live-blogging my food intake today, so after this is posted I will make a new post and update it throughout the day, so keep an eye out for that.

Thank you for reading, and I hope everyone has a great day.

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