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10:51 AM

Bowl  of Honey Kix Cereal


3:07PM

Chicken lunch  meat sandwich with mustard on wheat bread. Some sour cream and onion chips, and my 24 ounce body of water filled.


6:59 PM

Chicken Fingers and Fries.  These from a local eatery, my mother went out the other night and brought this back.


(I actually ended up only eating four the of Chicken tenders.)

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