Brandon, Who Lives At Home

Someone from my doctors office called to inform me about the MRI this morning. As the title says, there are small medial meniscus tears and mild osteoarthritis in my right knee, they have obviously refereed me to an  orthopedist. I had a feeling I was in for less than stellar news involving the knee. I guess the next  thing is to do is make an appointment with an orthopedist and see what the next step is, though Im positive it's surgery, which it's a no-go, I can't slow down now. In better news yesterday I also went to see my nutrionist, that went pretty well, I went down another level on the BMI index and got  20$ another gift card to Walmart, I think the last time this happened was January, or feburary, but it was pretty cool. I'll probably use this to buy some sunglasses (the kind that clip on or fit over my current glasses) or a dumbbell of some kind. Aside from making a trip to Wally World (Walmart) no real plans this weekend. I think I'm j...

[Thursday] Today was a much calmer day. I decided to stay at Nick and Melissa's an extra day. I went for my walk at the park much later than usual, in the afternoon we also took Belle. Melissa walked with me for a bit but Belle just wasn't used to it so she eventually went to sit in the car. I had not eaten since breakfast and my body just didn't respond well, and also my legs were just a wee bit sore from Wednesday, so I should have eaten lunch, but it escaped me. I struggled getting through it, but did in fact get through. I did notice how much more sore my legs were though, I'm not sure if I'll go Friday, I may just do indoor miles, or take take it easy.

[ Wednesday]  I had my walk again in the morning, I took my camera, but my anxiety was high before I even arrived there,  once I was there I just wasn't in the mood to take pictures. There were track team runners along the walk toward the end which triggered more anxiety and issues with my body dysmorphia, but I won't go into that. I had therapy, and that went well but had a lot of catching up todo. I felt rather exhausted after the session though. It was my friend Melissa's birthday so I decided to spend the day with her and Nick. It was supposed to be a mellow occasion, but it quickly proved otherwise. I rode with Melissa to get impromptu cupcakes, things had been tense, she was already upset because Nick had worked later than he was supposed to and when he arrived home he was in the car for 10 minutes on the phone with work, and when he finally came in he was  still  on the phone with work and didn't acknowledge her, and remained talking on the phone for X a...

This morning I had my usual breakfast of cereal, and toaster pastries I am switching to Oats soon, and likely ditching the toaster pastries altogether  even though they are 400 calories (total), empty calories, but calories nonetheless. Anyways the day has begun. At 9am I embarked on my walk at the park, the weather was actually perfect, though there were more people walking the track than I expected,  had my tunes so I couldn't be bothered. I brought my point-n-shoot camera so took a few photos aswell. iPod is clipped to my polar watch, which is completely dead! I'll have to get a new battery. That dragonfly was up to no good for far too long. Next to time I'll take pictures as I go along the entire track. It was actually a nice relaxing walk, I made a really good playlist on iTunes the other day so I have to pat myself on the back for that, I noticed at one point that I had just started walking to the rhythm of certain songs, I guess Subconciously, normally I ju...

Its Monday typically that means weigh-in but I've decided not to weigh-in on account of how the last half week went, I'm sure I lost, I may not have I don't know. Eating less than a thousand calories for four days has me thinking I'd probably have some nice numbers, numbers that might be so nice that the following week they might go up just to stabilize, or could be too hard to replicate which seems rational, but I don't ever take these things rationally. So I'm just going to avoid the crisis. I had the MRI for my knee done this morning, that was an interesting experience. In a couple days Ill know what the situation is exactly. Right before I left I found out exactly when my appointment with the nephrologist will be... August 25th. If you are taken a back by how far away that is well, let's just say you're not the only one. I was told if a sooner opening becomes available I would be contacted, but that was very little consolation, I've been...

It was quite the long haul, but the week of Dogsitting has officially concluded. They got me a smokey mountain bucket hat as a souvenir, but the greatest gift of all was relinquishing me of all things concerning the dog. They filled me in on all things their vacation, it sounded wonderful. Then they got to hear about the misadventures of Brandon and Belle, it was nice catching up, we soon decided to get lunch. After a week of chicken, and the past four days of eating less than a thousand calories I wanted actual red meat and I didn't mind if it was fast food. We decided on Sonic, I got a double bacon cheeseburger and a large fries, and I gave them my drink. I also ate one of Melissa's mozzarella sticks. It typically takes me awhile to get through my food nowadays I think I naturally eat slower, but also take into account I could only eat on one side of my mouth. It still seemed to take particularly long getting through that burger, but then again, I'm not used to burg...

The final night of dog sitting is upon me, it seems I've finally got belle recalibrated to using the bathroom outside, funny how storm can really throw a wrench into the flow of things. I've been able to eat a bit more lately, by tilting my head and eating to one side slowly, I still don't eat much but I eat just enough not to feel hungry. Tooth hasn't been hurting as bad since I having been using it as much. I have anxiety, I just realized this week has kind of been like I have been sequestered. It's just been me and this dog all week. I called my mom a few times on Google Hangouts, made an appointment, but was otherwise away . The dog added flare to an otherwise underwhelming, unusual week. I didn't exercise, and due to my tooth situation I didn't eat right throughout. I'm angry. I didn't read, I didn't discover anything about myself, I didn't find a new great tv show, or stumble upon a good movie, I didn't meet one of their awesome...

Remember that good news about Belle not having any accidents, well that's gone out the window! Last night we got a major storm, loud lighting bolts, thunder, high winds, down pour of rain, the works. Belle of the Ball lost all of her composure. She was not able to sit still, she was a nervous wreck, a one point a lightning  bolt sent seemingly straight from Zeus' trident appeared to have just landed about three feet away from the apartment, Belle sling-shooted from one side of the room to another, and I basically had an outer body experience (Astro Projection?) because that sent me straight out of my body for a few seconds. This was pretty late after 12am, midnight. Belle finally made her way back to the couch. It wasn't long before I noticed the tornado siren going off, anxiety was starting to rise, but the dull ache from my tooth, and Belles theatrics were distracting me pretty  good. I had noticed how hard the wind was blowing. I thought I better message mom   I love...

Otherwise known as a cavity, its been building up to this point the past few days but now it's reached a fever-pitch and it's awful,  I  won't be able to do anything about it until next week though, and judging by the severity of the pain, which is reminiscent of the pain I had a few years ago when I had a cavity that had to be pulled (when I was warned of my high blood pressure but did nothing) this tooth probably has to go too. It's interesting I  try to make it a point to brush my teeth more then something happens like a seeping spell of depression and it's the the first thing to go, especially  since brushing before bed becomes so iffy since bedtime  can very during bouts of the dark haze. Anyways it's going to be long rest of the week, the good news is Belle has been rather good, no accidents.

6-21-2016 Chicken + Veggies + Rice, Baked Fries. It's #whatsfordinner #healthychoices #weightlossjourney #losingweight #accountability #brandonwholivesathome A photo posted by Brandon Hall (@brandonwholivesathome) on Jun 21, 2016 at 5:17pm PDT So what we have here is my Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast (a heftier peice today) Rice & Veggies, and Baked Fries. Today's calories is roughly 450 calories

6-20-2016 Below we have my usual of boneless, skinless chicken breast (lightly season with garlic and sea salt). Steamed veggies (broccoli, cauliflower and carrots) and some baked fries which I generally have quite often. This is 210 calories. I actually did eat a bit more today, in comparison to the last several days, but I still have ended up with 1290 calories to spare. A photo posted by Brandon Hall (@brandonwholivesathome) on Jun 20, 2016 at 3:46pm PDT

It's weigh-in, after a week of good eating and exercise (minus Friday I didn't workout ) it's time to see the results. Last week I weighed 387.4, this week 385.6. I lost 1.8lbs, I'm not quite sure why this week is lower than the week before. I'm not very happy with this number, and this a little foreboding for what I can expect for next week since there won't be workouts this week, but I'm still down at least. Goals got the week include coming closer to my calorie goal (2500), I have not been coming close enough to my calorie goal daily, I tend to leave a lot of leftover calories to spare and I think this week I'm going to try to close the gap a bit more which likely won't help with next weeks weigh-in but I'm just going to see how this goes. Reading is another goal for the week, I'm now 48% done with my book, so if I read at a consistent pace everyday this week I can really get through a nice portion of the book, and I'm also on is...