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That's what I work today, just a few hours away. I had some Raisin Bran for breakfast. Im kind of feeling out of it today and dont have much to say (yet), so this is it for now. Ill likely do a post work update. Its a long day, and its quite likely I will finish those computer trainings long before the shift ends, so it'll likely be an interesting day.

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